Most individuals who I encounter on the so known as ‘non secular’ path, have come to it as a result of they wish to change themselves. They wish to really feel higher, to be higher. Persons are hoping for higher sleep and higher relationships. They’re searching for extra readability. And to cut back stress.
Often, it is an entire lot of Me, Myself & I. A complete lot of selfing.
Which is definitely fairly painful. To have our heads caught deep into our personal assholes is NOT a pleasant feeling. Belief me, as a result of I am talking from my very own expertise, having spent a whole lot of time there. So I do know that it is cramped, claustrophobic and pungent up in there 🙂
I usually meet individuals who wish to discover themselves. Their true selves.
They’re earnestly asking the query: Who Am I?
And this is a tried and true approach of non secular inquiry. However usually, after we start asking, we need to discover out what we actually need, or could be appropriate for, by way of career, relationship and place to calm down.
However in some unspecified time in the future, throughout this non secular* quest, we should arrive on the realisation that this ‘true self’ does not have a career, a real want, a sexual orientation, a gender, a glance. This TRUE SELF (if we select to name it that) is past the standard self. The true self cannot be described by phrases. It is very slippery. It is boundless and spacious and arduous to pin down.
The true self cannot be situated.
And the standard self, the one we spend a lot time worrying about. The one who’s normally the main star in all of our desires and most of our ideas is only a thought. A persistent thought, however nonetheless a thought. It solely exists within the thoughts as a mind-made story of who we’re, with our likes and dislikes. Our reminiscences. And our persona. However the way in which we really feel and the way in which we predict, they do not come from any TRUE SELF deep inside. As an alternative they’re like climate. The results of our upbringing, our tradition, what we see, hear, learn. What we eat. Our genes and many others.
After we step exterior the thoughts, we uncover one thing I believe could possibly be described as PARADISE. Stepping exterior the thoughts is straightforward. It is really easy that it is usually neglected. And so subsequently, it (normally) takes some apply to know how to not overlook it. However as soon as you have seen what’s past the thoughts, it isn’t potential to un-see. We always remember.
And sure, it does appear scary at first to a few of us. As a result of we prefer to really feel in management, even after we perceive that this so known as management is simply an phantasm.
We lose ourselves on a regular basis. After we get absorbed in one thing. Dancing, writing, making music, fucking, taking part in with a canine. Watching a starry evening sky unfold out in a endless marvellous deep blue everlasting cover. And after we fall asleep. Dropping ourselves feels good. It is normally one thing we sit up for doing.
Being self-conscious is disagreeable. In case you are dancing in a membership, however as you might be shuffling round on the dance flooring, all you can take into consideration is your ex, or whether or not your strikes look foolish or whether or not you look fats in that gown, that is not a nice approach of being. Then again, if you lose your self within the dance, there aren’t many ideas, you do not surprise how different individuals would possibly understand you. You turn out to be one with the music and the area and the individuals.
And that is the place it is at. That is what we’re searching for.
And that is what we’ll in the end discover.